Hello Welcome 🙂 This edition of the “Gifts from Younger Me” newsletter contains Pages 1-7 of “What if Magic Is Real?”, a fully handwritten book completed in the span of 2 months (January 26th 2024 – March 24th 2024). Feel free to start here, this is the beginning, but if you’d like a bit of context, a bit of scene setting, then check out the Welcome Letter and the Prologue. I danced before I wrote the Welcome Letter and I took my first steps on stilts before I shared the Prologue.
January 26th 2024
J: What if magic is real?
~ Would it really be a surprise? To you?
J: No, I guess it wouldn’t.
~ Janet, I’m so happy you’re here. I’m so glad you had the courage to write the first words on a blank page. And you chose such wonderful words. You chose the words that connect deeply to your heart.
J: Maybe. I remember how much I believed in magic when I was little. I remember how long I maintained that belief, but it hasn’t felt the same for a while. I don’t remember how to do magic.
~ You just did magic. You found the words that acted like a key back to me. Give me the okay that you’re ready to hear what I have to say, and we’ll get on our way.
J: You have my okay. [Signature]
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~ It’s time. Do you feel that shiver down your spine? I know you know what I mean when I say “it’s time”. It’s time for you to be presented with your purpose to fulfill on Earth. You’ve been waiting for so long that you forgot this day was coming, or, maybe you stopped believing it would.
J: There’s a small piece of me saying “yes, yes, yes” and the rest of me thinks it’s just a story, too good to be true.
~ Let me remind you of who you are, let me remind you of your magic- your magic that is in entering stories, your magic that is in designing stories, your magic that is in bringing things to life through stories…what you write becomes real.
Let’s go back in time for a moment.
When you were in middle school you started writing to Amsco. And through writing, he talked back to you. Through writing, you were able to visit Eponicericeval, the 13th planet in the galaxy of Alphitoran. And you visited Leka, the island where stories live.
You might say “that was just a story I wrote” but if you think back to when you were writing it, you knew it wasn’t a story. You knew you were in Eponicericeval while you were writing. You know you had the power to speak to creatures that others couldn’t see.
Remember this, remember this certainty.
I feel you remembering.
Good.
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~ Come visit Eponicericeval again with me?
J: Yes, of course.
~ We begin with infinite darkness. That is what holds the space for all that exists. A certain blurry doorknob appears and you pull it, stepping through a film of energy. It’s invisible energy- one you can’t see but that you can feel. Now tell me, what happens next? What do you see?
J: Flowers. I see red and pink flowers. They’re so bright and they form a line on either side of me. They are held by loving entities. You’ve been waiting for me? You’re welcoming me?
~ Keep writing.
J: We walk together down the lane to an opening- a golden frame through which I can see green grass, a blue sky, and I can sense… peace. A castle lies in the distance. We step inside and there’s a gentle breeze. I feel the grass rustling under my feet.
And oh! Oh my. That’s younger me, she’s standing right there with a book in her hands. She says “I’m here. I’ve been here, waiting for you for so long. I can’t believe how many amazing things you’ve done on Earth. I’ll help you do even more. And I’ll show you all the amazing things here…”
~ How come you paused?
J: She’s happy? Younger me is happy? I thought she was sad, a lot. And confused by the world, mad at the world. Depressed sometimes even. I remember hours of crying alone in the dark. There’s a part of me that wants to hurt the world for not seeing all of her. For making her think she had to be more than herself to earn the right to exist.
~ You’re forgetting something. All of those things are true AND she felt the flame, the spark of belief in magic burning deep deep in her core. It was so far that
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sometimes she couldn’t reach it. But she knew it was there and that brought her comfort. It allowed her to surrender to the dark moments. She trusted that when the darkness cleared away the magic would rise again. Her belief was stronger than yours is. That’s why she’s here, to teach you something you’ve forgotten.
J: “Can I tell you a secret?” younger me asks, placing her book on the ground and sitting on top of it. I nod in response. “The reason you’ve forgotten the flame is because I have it. You knew it was valuable, you knew it needed to be protected, but there came a time when you weren’t sure you could keep it alive on Earth. So you sent me to Eponicericeval with it. You know, for safe keeping. And we’ve been safe, it’s been fun. But we want to be with you again.
Also, I don’t want you to be mad at the world. It’s not against you, it never was, not even back then. Magic has always shown up when you needed it to. I can show you my book of memories and perspectives.”
~ Follow her lead. It’ll be good for the two of you to spend time together. She’s been able to see your life on Earth so she’s up to date with all that’s happened. But you haven’t opened the connection to this world in a while so she hasn’t been able to talk to you or send you messages. There’s more you need to hear from her than she needs to hear from you.
And don’t worry about not having visited for a long time. It’s much harder for you to get here when you’re without the flame. And actually, the fact that you made it is a very good sign.
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Up Next: January 27th 2024… J: Little me, it’s a joy to see you. And especially a joy to see you holding happiness. “Oh no. I don’t hold happiness. He’s a wild dog. I just treat him kindly and so he likes to spend time with me whenever our paths cross…”
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