Dear Universe,
I have found my answer!! THE answer. The answer is that I AM a dancer!
There is no one besides me, who knows the depth of what this means. But when I say it is the key, please believe me.
I am a writer,
I am a painter,
I am a general artist of all trades,
a creative.
But First AND Foremost, I am a dancer.
After all, is that not what you call a writer in dancers’ clothes who cannot write if she does not dance? 😉
Let me go dance outside just because I want to- with gymnastics ribbons even though I don’t do gymnastics, wearing a ballet dress even though I don’t do ballet.
And let me write, and let me share.
Let me feel joy.
Let my joy be beautiful.
Let the world enjoy my existence.
And if one day I can no longer dance and I can no longer write and I can no longer see the images in my mind, let me die.
Unless… I still remember how to love and despair. Then let me live a bit longer, wallow in despair for all the things I miss, the people, and in the very last moment, let me smile and go with twinkling eyes.
With love for the love.
With love for the despair.
With love for the life,
I was so so lucky to live.
When this day comes, let my death be a gift, just as had been my life. Let death itself be a dance my body knows how to do by design.
But until that day comes, let me share my gifts with the world. Let me share the stories younger me wished to be told.
Love, Janet Akselrud
PS. You know, out of all the existences I’ve had so far-this current one is my favorite, hands down. And you know, my soul loves life. She loves to be alive. She forgets this sometimes, but that doesn’t make it any less true. After all, such is life, to forget things like this once in a while.
Welcome to the Gifts From Younger Me newsletter. It will be available on LinkedIn, Substack, and shortly also on my website curiouswanderingsouls.com.
This newsletter is a curious place to land when adulthood feels heavy and your spark feels dim. I will be sharing notes and stories written by younger me, allowing her voice to be heard and her magic to be felt.
Follow along, celebrate her with me 🙂
The first content I’ll be sharing comes from “What If Magic Is Real?”, a fully handwritten book completed in the span of 2 months January 26th 2024 – March 24th 2024 while traveling across 2 countries and 5 states. It is the door I am opening to you- to give you a glimpse at my world, to introduce you to the depth of my WHY. Why I write, why I believe there is magic in writing, why I see the beauty in a blank page. Subscribe 🙂
